I finally have a chance to Free-write to one of my favorite songs ‘Breakthrough’ by Goapele….. Let’s see where you’ll take me- my Muse…..

EXPEDIENCY 

LIMITLESS

I dash to the point of no return looking forward to the opposition

Shift

Position to make way down a golden road leading to the place

Where

I first saw the light of-  

ME

Seen bright dense blinding

HOPE

Soaking in wishes becoming dreams forming hope anchored by Faith

BELIEVE

These tears I cry aren’t in vein!

I despise shame!

I WILL NOT BE DETAINED ANY LONGER 

My vision grows STRONGER

Further in the distance the line to finish connecting thoughts to form-

A vivid picture of written scripture

Burned upon a heart of amber flames

A melting rage of Courage released from cage–

As I finally turn the page….

A Hope that has been waited upon for years is beginning to take shape! After countless nights of prayers carefully wrapped in a blanket of tears, after countless attacks against my Fortress of Faith, I FINALLY SEE THEM- forming in the distance, the view excits my anticipation and an urgency to prepare for what I could only taste in my dreams… has given me such a joy for life! This is gonna be some ride! I am so grateful and blessed to see the day when I could say….

I CAN SEE THEM

by LIMITLESS

My Dreams have finally come to life!

Piecing together my path 

coming to mind

I find thoughts of substance,

My hope has built what mind clutches!

MY GOD–

I see Them…

At last…..

Once you realize this is your time, your moment, and your opportunity to grasp a foothold to your dreams, what is there left to do! you must gather up every ounce of perseverance and determination, having them at the ready, when you set yourself to….

TAKE AIM

by LIMITLESS

Searching for Peace Eternal

I scribe in my heart journal burnable is the fuel to ignite the desire

Fire

Burns higher

I can smell the fumes of success the beauty of blessed

no-longer a guest in my own dreams

it seems

this work has developed a blazing story of discovered glory

this fury

fired ambitions towards the stars

reaching

for

Promise….

“no matter HOW FAR-“

“I will NOT become..,”

“The Tragedy of a Shooting Star….!”

THIS LIFE CAN BE LIKE A GIANT PUZZLE WE WALK THROUGH; ADDING AND REMOVING PIECES OF OURSELVES IN AN ATTEMPT TO FIND OUR ORIGINAL SELF. THIS IS A POEM EXPRESSING THE INNER TURMOIL ONE CAN FIND THEMSELVES STRUGGLING WITH WHEN THEY REALIZE…,

“I’M SHATTERED….?”

by LIMITLESS

Scattered and fragmented-

Evidence of a broken heart that never mended.

I’M SHATTERED,

In pieces,

Left solitary,

Forsaken like discarded feces….

IIIII’M

SHATTERED,

Blistered feet worn from searching for-

ME….

I’M SHATTERED,

How can I fix this split existence?

Someone, 

TELL ME

HELP ME,

“…. I’m…”

a tear falls heavy with concern )

“Shattered….”

I find myself wrapped up in some of my favorite shows from time to time. But when your escape becomes your trap, holding your attention hostage, while Life passes by- consider putting your favorite show on pause and start staring in your own Life story. This is…

SURF’S UP

by LIMITLESS

I’m Surfing…,

Trying to find the right frequency of relaxation,

Forget peaceful meditation,

Sshhh…,

My brains on vacation.

I’m surfing…,

Flipping from script to script, exploring scenes,

I’m Surfing….

Surfing’s like a dream you chase,

Trying to fulfill a driven taste,

Trying to discover the answer to,”What’s gonna happen next?”

Putting the children on pause and the spouse on mute,

Just so I can press play.

OH!

WHAT A GLORIOUS 80 INCH, HD, 4D, LCD, 1080P…

I’m,

Surfing…

While trying to hear my loved one’s express their going through’s,

Their diverse up’s and down’s,

Their emotional roller-coaster rides;

While simultaneously listening to my delightful programing;

All the while,

My fingers continue to ride the wave of entertainment searching for my favorite focus detainment.

Then I hear,

“DADDY.”

“WHAT…!”

“Look at what I did.”

NOT NOW,

CAN’T YOU SEE I’M SURFING….

Stay focused on what you Know you want out of life and pin your thoughts upon the portrait of your hopes. Do not allow yourself to get caught try’n to run your race wearing…

CEMENT SHOES….

by LIMITLESS

I wanna get out of these cement shoes;

I’m fed up with singing the blues.

I’d rather choose to pursue what’s been give’n so I can start live’n,

But I can’t move with these cement shoes;

Stuck running in place,

Days full of hurry up and wait’s.

Patient yes, however, the blues from these cement shoes amplifies stresses.

What’s left to do???

Give up to the weight of these cement shoes or use the chisel tool to

Chip away at these stone blocks poured over my feet mixed from heavy thoughts…

Feeling like there’s a plate of hope and a spoonful of desire just out of reach;

All because of these cement thoughts that put these blocks on my feet….

-Philippians 4:8  “Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.”

WHEN DOUBT BEGINS ITS ASSAULT ON YOUR DREAM IT’S TIME TO SOUND THE ALARM…

 

TOO ARMS…  TOO ARMS…

by LIMITLESS

I went from survivor to fighter swinging this pen ’til my arms

Went tired striving to follow the pillar of fire burning in my soul cuz

The artifice reality is cold we got sold a lemon when the forbidden

Fruit was given they want you to believe the crumbs given is real

Live’n

Its official the warrant has been issued calling for the arrest of this

Development I demand this deception to quit or taste the tip of my

Pen in hand balled fist quiver free-writing a command,

“WE THE PEOPLE DEMAND TRUTH”…!

Went from survivor to Prize Fighter wielding a weapon mightier than

Sword words catch fire as paper absorbs My Dreams-

The War rages

On…..!

This poem stands as a release for me; writing this poem meant that I had to go back and find the pain and the hurt I thought I was free from. I realized I had to unload the weights I was carrying with me & so in writing these words I began to release them; it’s my hope that this poem brings freedom to all those that find themselves in these words, this is….

They Never Saw Me….

by LIMITLESS

They never saw me!!!

They never saw me when I tried to fit in, camouflaging myself to blend with them,

but,

they never saw me.

They never saw me tearing inside, too young to understand the value of Self virtue, I guess I was too wounded from beating myself up,

“WHY DON’T YOU STAND-UP FOR YOURSELF”, Self would say on the daily.

They never saw me when I put on my best, face, laughing outside numb underneath.

They never saw me struggling to find joy in the midst of being an emotional toy–

get’n played with on the regular.

They never saw me turn a pillow into a roaring river;

They never counted one of my one hundred tears,

They never helped me figure out why I felt the urge to paint the wall with my own brain matter, calling it quits cause I didn’t think I mattered.

They never cared to see beyond what they wanted me to be!

They didn’t see the walls I built to shield my damaged psyche as they thought their jokes where funny– I hated being the punchline, “hahaha, he looks like______”;

“I’m fine” was my daily lie-n, they never saw, so I left them blind.

They never saw the pain from being made to feel shameful about being me.

They never saw my insecurities just the front’s I put up; pretending to be friendly when really I wanted to cut them deeper than I was hurting saying nothing to keep from bursting.

They didn’t see how the goofy clown I portrayed to be was just to contain the rage behind bars quite in a cage- silent but deadly.

They never saw how Jesus Christ saved my life more than once, living recklessly a life under the  influence of  liquor and blunts.

They never saw how My God brought me out of all this darkness into the bosom of his dear son.

But they will see me as I rise out of this mental pit they left me in.

They will see me as I bravely let my light shine without fear as I announce, “despite all your malicious tactics–

I’M STILL HERE”…..

 

 

Sometimes making a decision isn’t cut and dry, sometimes it takes serious thought to gather enough strength and courage to step out into the unknown; many of us have had a conversation going on in our heads as we weigh possible life changing options. This is…

A Double Minded Conversation

by LIMITLESS

Why?!

Why do I hide who I am?

Am I afraid,

that if I show my true self exposing my souls wealth I might get robbed of all dignity

and honor

Why when Self & I talk it sounds like a barter;

Self & I involved in a give and take debate leaving

Me to mediate:

Self: “ YOU KNOW WHO YOU REALLY ARE, SO SHOW IT”

I:  “if I show all, I may fall in front of everyone, my fear has become”-

Self: “ BONDAGE, to You and Me, COME ON”

I: “I JUST WANT TO BE FREE;  that’s what I told Me”

Self:  “BUT HE AGREED WITH my-Self.”

I:  “I can’t deny the truth Self, but”

Self: “What! that’s not enough?”  “I’m tired of feeling crushed. I WANT YOU OUT.”

I: “I WANNA GET OUT, of my shell hidden no longer, that’s the only way WE will get stronger.”

Self: “Finally we agree…!”

The things of the past remain there until we revive them, bringing back to life the good things we’ve experienced, but, as for the things we’ve gone through that haunt our very dreams and weight our footsteps of progression– I would like to be the first to deliver my…,

LETTER of INTENT

by LIMITLESS

Dear Past,

I WANT A DIVORCE

I can no-longer carry-on like things are OK between us, thus I must separate myself from you,

even though,

we’ve been together since beyond remembrance;

starting our journey together the day after existence–

we shared the second breath of life together,

I inhaled,

you exhaled…,

BUT,

I

can’t

carry you anymore-

nor your addicting feelings of,

Self condemnation,

of

Self suffocation & devaluation leading me back to frustration

So,

My monstrous creation I’m ending this relation based on the constant times in my happiness you remain vacant

BUT

when misery calls for your recall you take us both into depressions free fall

THAT’S WHY YOU CAN’T FALLOW ME

I will not bring your tainted residue into my new relationship with Future!

I choose to lose your pain, hurt, embarrassment, &  insecurities;

so make sure you lose my contact info before you leave my thoughts forever to never be seen again-

And by the way Happy New year!!!

NOW

disappear,

for

I will no-longer fear you coming back to haunt my day’s to come.

Thanks for the memories-

It’s been fun.

Very Sincerely not yours,

ME

in the present….