MEMOIRS OF A BLUE PHOENIX CONTINUES….

At the start of the day, many can attest to this. There is a gloomy cloud over your head to greet you…

For those who may not understand,

The battle with depression is REAL…

Multiple sclerosis brings its own burden with it, and then you compound adulting on top of that!

It’s a real struggle.

There is a reason we wave the MS WARRIORS banner.

This is a real Fight for your Life.

A fight to retain who you are while staying a float mentality.

This is not for the faint of heart…

Multiple sclerosis will reveal what kind of heart you have.

WARRIORS LIVE HERE 💪🏾

TO WIN IS THE ONLY OBJECTIVE…

MEMOIRS OF A BLUE PHOENIX

ANOTHER DAY IN THE BOOKS…

While STREET FIGHTER RINGS IN MY HEAD,

“ROUND 1 FIGHT!!!’

As I wake up with EVERYTHING on

DEF-COM 3!

Here we go again…

Rolling out of bed slow and easy…

OUCH!!!

Walking through the house OUCH-

Ouch!!!!

Pens and Needles + the occasional electric shock through my spine, legs, feet…

What a DAY…

STILL UNDEFEATED THOUGH!!!

CURE HUNTING STILL MISSION 1!!!

There will be a day when I win while I yet live and breathe!

NO WAY THESE SCARS WILL BIND ME!!!

But…

The fact of the Matter is…

IM TIRED, LOL

I’m running on a quarter of a tank here….

But still…

UNDEFEATED!!!

Still standing!!!

Still FIGHTING 💪🏾🫶🏾

🤔….

Who do you spend the most time with?

MYSELF!

🤣

There MUST be a lounge in my head where these thoughts mingle.

Sitting with Cannabis cigar in hand,

Reflecting on the day & how it was spent.

Time investments made towards the portfolio of life.

Calculating ratios of wins vs. loses…

Adjusting the line-up of decisions that lay before the next day.

My eyes drift off to the distance exploring the scene.

My thoughts and I cycle outcomes of our next move on the chess board.

Spending countless hours contemplating each move made…

To answer this question,

Who do you spend the most time with?

I would have to say myself…

Whom it takes a Lifetime to know…

MEMOIRS OF A BLUE PHOENIX

Chapter…. whatever…

If I sound whiney,

It’s because….

I AM-

To experience this on a daily basis is a struggle in and of itself.

I’ve been in this fight for almost 20 yrs.,

NON STOP….

I’m sharing my daily trials to help those that don’t understand how life is changing..,

In some cases, devastating…

It’s almost like you literally lose yourself in constant pain, only seeking some form of relief.

Fighting to keep your head above these troubling seas of depression cleaving to the only lifeline you have…

“HOPE…”

It takes time for spouses and loved ones to fully understand.

The thought that they suffer with you, cry with you..,

Pray for you…

Is clouded by self-absorbed turmoil…

It’s hard to see this in the darkness of your own suffering.

So we FIGHT ON

Fighting to live beyond this…

Which will never define Me…

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RHYTHMIC BLISS…

BY LIMITLESS

CAUGHT up,

In a moment, waiting, pacing through back and forth on what’s the next

Time moves passing from frame to frame.

Slowly, I take it in like breath to pen when the wind of inspiration hits it’s like a rhythm begins…

Melodies these words play,

This is word play,

Keys send notes forming this rythem.

They wrestle in tandom fighting for the solo-

Light spots this rhythmic bliss…

On my mind, these words kiss…

It is an awful awareness, this…

SECRET SILENCE…

LIMITLESS

An open smile to resemble better,

But,

Behind this-

This perceived broken self loathing

Choaking on words.

They are rusted daggers at the ready

Held steady by a tempered spirit

Hidden behind this display of strength-

He crumbles without notice…

With silent tears, he holds ground believing…

He has no other choice!

But to…

HE MUST LIVE…

RIGHTEOUS PERSUITS…

THE SWEET TASTE

LIMITLESS

Who am I?

A reflection of The KING!

IN I-

looking with a redeeming eye.

I was Blind!

Now I see how I can transform into this new identity,

of me,

The King & I reflecting The King in eye.

Aspiring to do great things with the motivation of a Great Dream.

Sprouting great wings!

Flying higher than the greatest of expectations!

Walking in a forever revelation.

Bathing in an eternal destination –

Life Continues…

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This is just me…

If you could be someone else for a day, who would you be, and why?

May be I’m too deep of a thinker..🤔

May be its a LIBBRAS Feature.

Besides,

I can only be Me fighting to see all the distinct features through the mirrored lens…

Being true to Self,

And honorable among friends.

I can only be Me,

Myself,

& I…

Flying above and beyond impossible boundaries…

LIVING LIFE

LIMITLESS 🫡

Who else could I be..?

I’m still trying to Master-

Me…