MEMOIRS OF A BLUE PHOENIX

ANOTHER DAY IN THE BOOKS…

While STREET FIGHTER RINGS IN MY HEAD,

“ROUND 1 FIGHT!!!’

As I wake up with EVERYTHING on

DEF-COM 3!

Here we go again…

Rolling out of bed slow and easy…

OUCH!!!

Walking through the house OUCH-

Ouch!!!!

Pens and Needles + the occasional electric shock through my spine, legs, feet…

What a DAY…

STILL UNDEFEATED THOUGH!!!

CURE HUNTING STILL MISSION 1!!!

There will be a day when I win while I yet live and breathe!

NO WAY THESE SCARS WILL BIND ME!!!

But…

The fact of the Matter is…

IM TIRED, LOL

I’m running on a quarter of a tank here….

But still…

UNDEFEATED!!!

Still standing!!!

Still FIGHTING πŸ’ͺ🏾🫢🏾

MEMOIRS OF A BLUE PHOENIX

Chapter…. whatever…

If I sound whiney,

It’s because….

I AM-

To experience this on a daily basis is a struggle in and of itself.

I’ve been in this fight for almost 20 yrs.,

NON STOP….

I’m sharing my daily trials to help those that don’t understand how life is changing..,

In some cases, devastating…

It’s almost like you literally lose yourself in constant pain, only seeking some form of relief.

Fighting to keep your head above these troubling seas of depression cleaving to the only lifeline you have…

“HOPE…”

It takes time for spouses and loved ones to fully understand.

The thought that they suffer with you, cry with you..,

Pray for you…

Is clouded by self-absorbed turmoil…

It’s hard to see this in the darkness of your own suffering.

So we FIGHT ON

Fighting to live beyond this…

Which will never define Me…

(VOICE Bible) JOHN 17:17- “Immerse them in the truth, the truth Your voice speaks.”

SEEKING FREEDOM

LIMITLESS

I just feel this heart beating thinking of the obstacles overcame when past passes the flame to present the World with the new

Sealed to what is absolute-

TRUTH…

Encounters blood tieding tales of past relations relative to present-

WHAT is…?

Foundation strengthens when bricks fill wholes cementing past chinchs-

weaknesses..,

found behind mental armor purged from shadow to light…

THIS TRUTH WARS AGAINST…

WOUNDS!

DISGRACE!

SHAME!

LIE’S-

Designed to detour you from sights unseen…

STILL PRESSEING-

For the remedy to free me from this vexation…

TROUBLES-

Succumb to the rails of-

TRUTH!

WHAT is TRUTH..?

YOUR WORD IS TRUTH

πŸ™πŸΎπŸ«ΆπŸΎ

To the 1st responders front liners Dr.’s and the families you belong to, “Thank you for your service & sacrifice in the War against this microscopic Enemy COVID19…”Β 

https://tidal.com/track/121910370

We see you…

LIMITLESS

In the approaching Storm the Darkness spreads across boarders and boundaries.

A call to combat the approaching threat goes out to stall this sneak attack.

PPE packs called to action, ventilators in short supply situations tragic when the 1st responders are left with an unwilling response..,

“We can’t save everyone!” πŸ˜₯

Still they run into the fray fully clothed with make shift protection layered in fear…

But still they run into the fray.

Every day encounters of loss accompanied by tear drops.

We,watch from a distance, at these silent hero’s on the Frontline.

Some have fallen in the line of their duty-

The few who never knew they’d be called Hero’s too.

Please don’t feel alone;

We see you torn from family,

Your homes to battle this tragedy left in the wake of this silent invisible enemy.

The World has noticed!

We see you…

We Thank you…

We pray for you-

Daily…

Check out this track on TIDAL: “Fix You (Live in Buenos Aires)” by Coldplay https://tidal.com/track/97448365 πŸ™πŸΎβ€

THE TEST….

A TRIAL OF FAITH…

LIMITLESS

Challenges of Self Image vs Night Terrors Feuding over territory Self inhibits. Torn at times flexing balance on hair trigger scales; acting as if all is well when inside this torment reflects Hell…

Burning desires doused in Patience begin to crack under the pressures of expected time…

“I SHOULD BE THERE BY NOW..!”

Self shouts the doubts burrowing into the depths of Faith searching for the chink…

SELF Embraces Question,

“What is THIS..?!”

The Battlefield of Faith…”

Wisdom SPEAKS Patently..,

BELIEVE…”