Hmmm…

Do you see yourself as a leader?

Interestingly, a leadership role hasnt been the #1 attraction.

I think a leader doesn’t look for the leadership spot.

I think it’s a natural gravitation towards the position.

It’s a need to fill the areas that are lacking in the things which are concerning.

Leadership comes from a genuine desire to serve.

A need to see equity and justice served correctly.

It is a determination to see “it” done.

An, “If you want it, done right,

DO IT YOURSELF” mentality.

Do I see myself in this light…?

We will see…

MEMOIRS OF A BLUE PHOENIX

CHAPTER-

There are days when it’s not all bad…

Dealing with multiple sclerosis,

Plus, dealing with the trials of the day

make it that much more valuable;

when you get days where you feel

Somewhat Normal.

Im still on a mission to find a cure to defeat this adversary once and, truly, for ALL.

A cure for me & all who are walking this path with me…

It’s a different perspective on life when you are confronted with your own mortality.

It’s a festering thought in the back of the mind,

Taunting & Cruel,

Reminding you that you are on borrowed time…

Still..,

That is overcome by the love I have surrounding me, reminding me that all is not lost.

As it was said to me by my spiritual mentor, ” As long as you are alive, there is always Hope…” – Apostle M. Waller

HOPE is my Anchor in this Storm.

An anchor held firmly in my grip…

HOPE, everlasting…

Imagine that….

What does your ideal home look like?

Wish list:

Main floor, basement, second floor, home office, home theater – and I mean real deal home theater with Popcorn & candy.

Has to be by water, a private community lake, or ocean front above Sea level property.

There are plenty of rooms for family and friends.

JACUZZI

SPA

Outdoor FULL ENTERTAINMENT SPACE

And a garage leaking Horsepower!

With a racetrack… mmm… Driveway, with 3 elevation changes, simulating A JAPANESE TOGUE RALLY COURSE!

….

That’s a good start…😎

MEMOIRS OF A BLUE PHOENIX

CHAPTER….

Well,

These last few days have been…

Well,

Depression is REAL…

It’s hard at times to find your way out.

By Gods grace, I have a strong support circle who is here to lift me up and keep me afloat.

It is TRUE

“TEAM WORK MAKES THE DREAM WORK”

I hope and pray you have the same

strength with in you, as well as around  you.

Keep pushing forward,Β  learn the lesson of the day & move towards the next adventure.

LIFE is a one-time experience…

Dont spend it in the Dark of Depression…

THERE IS SO MUCH MORE TO DISCOVER,

Not only in life,

but..,

Within yourself as well…

Besides…

Quitting has NEVER been an option…

πŸ™πŸΎ

MEMOIRS OF A BLUE PHOENIX CONTINUES….

At the start of the day, many can attest to this. There is a gloomy cloud over your head to greet you…

For those who may not understand,

The battle with depression is REAL…

Multiple sclerosis brings its own burden with it, and then you compound adulting on top of that!

It’s a real struggle.

There is a reason we wave the MS WARRIORS banner.

This is a real Fight for your Life.

A fight to retain who you are while staying a float mentality.

This is not for the faint of heart…

Multiple sclerosis will reveal what kind of heart you have.

WARRIORS LIVE HERE πŸ’ͺ🏾

TO WIN IS THE ONLY OBJECTIVE…

MEMOIRS OF A BLUE PHOENIX

ANOTHER DAY IN THE BOOKS…

While STREET FIGHTER RINGS IN MY HEAD,

“ROUND 1 FIGHT!!!’

As I wake up with EVERYTHING on

DEF-COM 3!

Here we go again…

Rolling out of bed slow and easy…

OUCH!!!

Walking through the house OUCH-

Ouch!!!!

Pens and Needles + the occasional electric shock through my spine, legs, feet…

What a DAY…

STILL UNDEFEATED THOUGH!!!

CURE HUNTING STILL MISSION 1!!!

There will be a day when I win while I yet live and breathe!

NO WAY THESE SCARS WILL BIND ME!!!

But…

The fact of the Matter is…

IM TIRED, LOL

I’m running on a quarter of a tank here….

But still…

UNDEFEATED!!!

Still standing!!!

Still FIGHTING πŸ’ͺ🏾🫢🏾

πŸ₯Ή….

What’s the most delicious thing you’ve ever eaten?

IT…

WAS SOOOO PERFECT….

Chocolate swirled around with creamy peanut butter with bitter dark chocolate layer of fudge blanketed by a Creamy Whipped to perfection, CHEESE CAKE FILLING…

Laid upon a bed of buttery granola pie crust…

This is followed by a Carmel whipped cappuccino…

PERFECTION,

In every bite…

THERE IS AN EXISTENCE BEYOND THIS FRACTION OF TIME WE SEE…

How important is spirituality in your life?

A bond of soul & Spirituality.

Touching dimensions beyond natural sight.

Where the 3rd eye views portraits of light descending deep into the soul.

A lasting imprint of an origin long forgotten.

Strands of a present vision…

THE SPIRITUAL blueprint scribed upon the tablet of my heart unlocked in the whispers of my dreams…

We, too, are SPIRITUAL beings…